writing and self-esteem

I find that perhaps it is difficult to write if one has on belief in oneself, thus difficult if one questions one's own right to exit. Low self-esteem must be causing my lack of will to write my own stories, as is is more sure that I am doing something useful for the world, earning my right to exist, if I am serving others.  Even when running? http://moncarnet.org/consulter-carnet-de-shiradest ShiraDest: Mon carnet 2015 Shira "Holocene/Human Era" Dest. 23 June, 12015 HE